So I put myself out there twice... It failed!

Updated: Jun 8, 2021

In the process of career hunting, it is now the norm to advertise your job credentials or network within your industry to get hired. Well, I tried doing both on Facebook and LinkedIn and it failed. On Facebook, I joined the Government of Canada networking group since one of my areas of interest was in policy. I advertised my skills, experiences and education, and the fact that I had already completed a previous term with the Federal Government and was bridgeable. I hoped that with my newly minted Master's degree in International Affairs on Policy, I would be the right candidate for any department, but alas, I did not receive one response.


The second time was based on a job I found on LinkedIn. Luckily, I had a LinkedIn connection who was the vice president within that department of the job posting. I had initially helped this connection in the past with some questions on international admissions within the post-secondary institution I worked for at the time. Since I knew this connection, I decided to send a message, hoping to ask some questions about the position, but I never got a response.


 

Initially, I was very upset with myself for reaching out to others for help with my job hunt. I was particularly upset at the LinkedIn connection because I had actually helped this person in the past and the connection could not even offer a response. Plus, I knew they had been on LinkedIn because I saw them post content a few days after I had sent the message. But after recovering from my anger, I realize that there was a lesson to be learned. I will not always get the recognition I want or think I deserve from others. Plus, I should not feel entitled to get answers because I provided help initially.


The Facebook incident brought about shame. It exacerbated the negative, self-loathing feeling I was experiencing during this job hunt; the feeling that I am not good enough for these companies hence why I am not getting more interviews, or why companies are not responding after interviews. I also experienced the feeling that somehow it is my fault that I am not working; maybe I am just lazy; maybe I stayed too long at a job; maybe it's my last name is a problem for employers; maybe my qualifications are not enough; maybe I should have responded differently to a question on an interview; maybe I am not looking hard enough; maybe I should apply for lower-level jobs. These feelings and thoughts had one thing in common: I must have screwed thing